Jute’s Stories

He said he came to visit me because I needed him. I didn’t know how right he was. He’s been my friend now for two years, though we’d never met in person. I met him through another friend in a video game.

At first, after things happened, I was panicked mostly because I felt I had no social support network. I had no one here I truly considered a close friend. That had been one huge issue for me. I had moved here thinking I wouldn’t have a problem making friends, but it turned out to be harder than I thought. Part of it was I worked all the time in the beginning and part of it was just a huge gap in interest. Not many women I knew played video games.

But after the initial shock wore off I found I had more friends than I thought. People were good to me, trying to help me take my mind off the sorrow and the outpouring of care I received was amazing.

Most of those people I only knew through pixels on a computer screen, but their concern and support helped me more than I had ever thought possible. I didn’t feel so alone and gradually life seemed better.

Isn’t it odd that a comment left here for me can make me cry? Not in a bad way mind you, but give me the feeling that things will get better and although no one can go through it for me, there are people who really do care and that made all the difference to me. Just knowing that, feeling the care of another human being let loose a flood of tears. I hadn’t realized how very hard being isolated was on me until that.

I’m eating again.

I still have to fight the urge not to, but it’s much better now. I believe they call it ‘turning the corner’. Everything is not over yet, but I do feel as though it’s going to be someday.

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